8.5 Weeks & Counting..

The third trimester is already here, and without realising, I have only about 8.5 weeks to go till Lil Bean is born.. How time flies..

I'm getting scared and excited at the same time. Sometimes I just can't wait for Lil Bean to arrive, but then I get so scared because I'm nowhere near prepared to welcome Lil Bean into this world:

1) The new house isn't anywhere near ready to move into
2) I haven't even started packing
3) Our total number of baby stuff is 6 rompers, 1 hoodie and 1 cute cow bottle Fella bought in Geneva (this includes the 1 romper & hoodie which I've misplaced!)
4) I've only just started reading up on labour and contractions
5) I know squat about everything else!

Then I get all excited again when I see Lil Bean's little face in 3D. We did a 3D scan recently, and though Lil Bean was shy at first, we finally managed to see such a cute face at the end (my chin & Fella's nose!). Now it's my wallpaper everywhere, and I can just stare at that picture all day.

Can't wait too see you my little darling!

Happy Weekend!

Last weekend was full of happy news and food. On 07.08.09 my sis gave birth to an adorable baby boy (who is still nameless at this point in time), and my BIL got hitched!

My newly married BIL is fella's youngest brother, and the last to get married. His wife was his Form 2 sweetheart (sweet, kan?). Alhamdulillah, so many relatives, neighbours and friends came to the wedding held at the family home in Gombak, and fella, especially, only managed to sit down at 4pm. I, on the other hand, sat whenever I could, because Lil Bean either was very excited or very annoyed by the crowd, or the fact that I was walking around, because, boy, did it kick me furiously!

BTW, I'm now 21 weeks pregnant, still not showing so much, but Lil Bean is doing its best to make its presence known. I still don't know if Lil Bean is a he or she, but I'm happy with either, although most of the baby names I've picked out have already been chosen by friends and family.

My new nephew came by way of c-section at 3.18pm, although my brother was advocating for the nicer time of 12:34:56 on 7.8.09. He looks like his brother Elijaz, although he's fair like Elixir. Unfortunately, I only managed to see him once as my time was entirely devoted to BIL's wedding, so hopefully I'll see more of him when he comes home.

Unfortunately, with the happy news comes the bad news (at least for me!). The weekend ended with a very sore back for me, and yesterday was spent sleeping and resting. Thankfully, today I feel much better, and I think Lil Bean is too, because its kicks aren't that hard anymore.

Till next time then!

A Note To My Dad

Abah,

Thanks for being there for me. Thanks for all the love and opportunities, and blind eyes towards my many 'misadventures'.

Thanks for putting family first. Thanks for never making us want for anything. Thanks for the wonderful partnership you have with Mak in making our childhood and lives filled with love and laughter.

Sorry I wasn't the model child (and still aren't!). Sorry for all the grief I've ever caused. Sorry for not making enough time to spend with you and Mak, believe me I'm trying to change all that. Thanks for loving me anyway despite all these.

Thank you for being my Dad. Happy Father's Day!

A Birthday I Won't Forget :)

It's my birthday today and I received the best gift I could ever get.

Today, around the same time I was born 34 years ago, I saw my Little Bean's arms and legs for the first time. The Little Bean was moving and squirming, probably wondering where he/she is, 'cos the Little Bean was, according to the Good Doctor, scratching its little head quite a bit.

I am now 10 1/2 weeks' pregnant, my first pregnancy after nearly 8 years of marriage. So far the pregnancy has been good. I haven't thrown up at all, having very mild morning sickness, and only having short bouts of nausea.

I have a feeling my Little Bean will actually not be so little, judging from the amount of unhealthy food I've been shovelling into my mouth for the past few weeks. The closest thing I've had to vegetables are mashed/baked/fried potatoes and coleslaw (eek!). One good thing is that I eat less food in each serving, but I need more servings than usual, so this kinda negates the first statement.

I've been feeling rather lethargic, which I think is both caused by the pregnancy as well as the terrible hot weather we've been having lately, and have been denied exercise by the Good Doctor, so I feel like a beached whale most of the time. Heh.

I'll be seeing the Little Bean in 1 1/2 weeks' time, and I seriously can't wait. That week, the Good Doctor says that we can probably see the nose and some other features. In that time, I'll be at the end of the 1st trimester, and can finally share news about the Little Bean with the whole world.

Little Bean, Alhamdulillah you're finally in me. I can't wait to see you again, even if it's only through wavy monochrome lines.

Stay safe in there, Little Bean. Mommy will see you again soon :)

Anyone missed me? :p

Sorry haven't been blogging for so long.. My excuse? No ideas. I used to think I was a writer when I was a kid, and I've written my fair share of poems, stories, essays, scripts and etc. during my schooldays. Unfortunately, this is not a hobby I've pursued since, and apart from this blog, the only things I've written lately are shopping lists and travel itineraries, which can hardly be called literary works :)

Also, I've been quite preoccupied with work, home and most important of all, some things (actually, mostly One) on my hopelutions list, and I must tell you it hasn't been easy.

While I envy those who do not have to go through what I have to, I am happy that they are blessed the way they are, and I wish no one else has to go through it as well, although God has reasons for why some things are the way they are. Am I being too cryptic? If you know me, you'll know what I mean. I'll probably start another blog on this topic if I can find the time (and if I can remember what happened!)

I just want to say thank you to my dearest, dearest fella, for loving me enough to go through this with me without complaint, but with ultimate sweetness and devotion; my wonderful parents, who are living proof that love for (at times difficult!) offspring has no bounds, and are willing to go on this journey with fella & I; my siblings (in-laws included) and their families, who have been pillars of support and love; and my lovely friends who have helped keep me in their thoughts.

I hope this is the beginning of a new journey for fella & I.. and I hope my next entry will not be so cryptic and have the news I've been hoping for! :)

See ya!

The New Year Hath Cometh

Happy New Year everyone! I have decided to do away with resolutions this year, 'cos I have never (not once!) managed to list down resolutions, let alone attempt to do any in my entire lifetime.

However, I have decided to come up with "hopelutions" or "wisholutions" which are things I hope/wish to do this year:

ONE: I hope this will be the year of little feet running (or crawling/kicking-whichever is applicable) in my house and life. And no, this does not include my dear Kengkang cat on his visits from my parents' house, or my little nieces & nephews running through the house. And little one, if you do come this year, I promise to not show you all the bills and receipts on trying to have you, unless you misbehave. Oh. And I also promise to love you forever, no matter what.

TWO: I hope that our business will continue to flourish, and we're finally able to expand and diversify like we've always dreamed of doing. I also hope to embark on new business ventures, especially with mom & sis and hope that that business will also do well. To my computer, although you're not a Mac, I hope to love you anyway, and in turn hope that you will always be sufficiently protected from viruses. And if you do succumb to that virus, I hope I will be of sound mind enough not to throw you across the room or beat you senseless with a tyre wrench. Well, at least, not until I backup all my important files.

THREE: I hope that my friends still want to be my friends, 'cos I've seriously neglected so many last year. Not by choice, though, but still.. when the only way you know what's going on in your friends' life is via stalker central aka FB, something needs to be done. I hope I'll be able to catch up with my friends more, and gossip and share like we used to before spouses and bills came between us. To my dear, close friends, I'm so sorry for not being there when you needed me last year, and for not being part of your lives, even though you guys were there for me for everything. I hope this will change this year. Just bear with me, and I hope we haven't grown too far apart for this to happen.

FOUR: I hope to cook more adventurous dishes this year. And hopefully eat balanced meals so I can at least just maintain how I look now.

FIVE: To my fella, I hope to be a better wife, partner, getaway driver and person to you. And I hope to do laundry more often so we're never short of er..underthings. And I hope our dreams will come true this year (re: items ONE & TWO) and hope that our relationship and love will grow stronger as we grow older (although I'm eternally 26 years old, if anyone asks!)

SIX: To my family (in-laws included!), I hope to be a better daughter, sister and person to all of you.

SEVEN: To my house, I hope to take care of you much better. I will strive to dust and mop you more, and occasionally do the windows. To my hob, hood and kitchen cabinets, I hope to take care of you more, and wipe you down after every mess. To my lawn, you will be loved. I shall strive not to allow weeds to start dwelling. To our newly Bonuslink-points-redeemed B&D grasscutter, I shall make good use of you more. No more will you reside in that pristine new box.

EIGHT: To my nieces and nephews (current and future), I hope to have more food in the kitchen and fridge for you, and more toys for you to play with when you're in my house. I hope to be able to bring you out more and be a fun Aunt. Although if I don't, you're welcome to my house anytime.

NINE: To my neighbours and security guards, I hope you understand that my fella and I at times either don't leave the house all day, or go out and come back only in the wee hours of the morning. Please understand that this is all business related and we hope to come to and join in any neighbourhood activities if our schedules permit.

TEN: To myself, I hope I'll make me even more proud of myself this year. I hope to attempt to do all of the above and be a better person overall. I hope to be able to travel more and do more for the community. And I hope to do all these with better hair, skin, teeth & clothes.

Have a good 2009 people!